*LET'S CHAT AWHILE SHALL WE: Chatting May Vary On Time Consumption*
*Thumps up on effective conversations.*
*People create their own chaos without me in it. They need to keep that at bay. An actual mindset of a female loner.*
*I think we need more natural remedy stores than banks.
*Heaven forbid if you consider your health in certain endeavours rather than people pleasing and much considering time well spent.
*When others feel you are too quiet for them or entitled in some way, well I personally wear a smile. Entitled individuals do exist unfortunately. They are the ones that gossip way too much, are too worldly, mooch too much from the system, and have no purpose in life.
*My male feline, Logic, has massive amount of intuition just like me.
*As a heightened intellectual myself, small talk bores me to the next level.
*If you are nice to me, please be genuine. Not superficial or have too much childish schemes up your sleeves.
*If my personal anointing and honesty bothers you, and simply being myself, then do not have too much access to my life. It's that simple. I will find out.
*Writing has its pros and cons unfortunately. One minute you have it altogether. Then next, it can be draining mentally.
*It's nice to create a massive idea such as this to assist others on getting to know my inner thoughts more and human being existence. My cellular devices have that effect as well. And all other devices as well.
*I thought growing up that it must be the grandest of idea that when you were to be assertive at times then quiet at times, you are more horrible when you finally have to be assertive or address matters. Even when there is logic and reason behind it as well. Smug!
*When you are surrounded by others that copy everything you do, either there are two thoughts considering. One, they have no identity in life really or two, they are in fact most likely jealous or envious of you of some sort. Whatever that may consist of.
*I like to count in my mind the vera reasons why I'm blessed and why others need to spend more hours with God rather than be cursed with less hours they do not spend with the Creator.
*I really am a calm and collected type of female. It takes a lot for me to lose my patience. Try to never escalate to that point though. Observations are my best. That's just what I do naturally.
*Personally I am against tracking and tagging animals, including poaching and experimenting. So when I read about or know about such indecency, it repulses me to no end. Such inhumane acts will eventually have its consequences. Animals that do no harm to society should not be targeted.
* I think and know considerably I'm a good person. It's just others have this horrible outlook toward myself that distinguishes their impaired minds. Well they need to have better vocabulary in my opinion.
*Being a highly sensitive female is hard sometimes. People are not listening when I am either crying or trying to word things to the best of my ability. That is why my main emotions are communicated to the Lord rather than to insensitive people.
*I consider astrology in that aspect to better understand human behaviour. Not the vain imaginations connected to it. And yet, you cross impaired minds that have had or still delving into encountering actual witchcraft, Ouija boards, and paranormal ideologies. Such are double standards and hypocritical to say the least. That is why I personally stay quiet in front of these types of individuals when they pass their judgments.
*My mother had a infatuation with Chuck Norris. Lol. Even one of her favourite TV shows was Walker, Texas Ranger. She even more admired him because of martial arts and and Native American involvement.
*In some scenarios, yes, I can be difficult because of my quietness and well simply do not trust easily. Not necessarily difficulty, but rather curious and my simple emotions throughout my day.
*Well flatter me biscuits, I love figuring people out. It's a hobby of mine. It really is.(Pocahontas Cartoon Movie: It's Meeko! Lol!)
*I have to get mentally prepared before going out in public due to my introversion and social anxiety. Even if I take my natural based anxiety medicine for the day. Deep breaths and then let's give it a go. It takes courage to step outside for me.
*"A Soldier's Memoir" is actually based of course toward my mother's not so good upbringing. I written it in a way to where that is what family dynamic she desired to have but did not unfortunately. She had hazel eyes, did have siblings, and I written it also for her actual soulmate/love of her life.(Even though after that time era, she experienced three no so good relationships and then ended them. She was single for years before passing away). My mother was vera feminine to a degree. The short story reflects on what actual relationships should be, what to expect from real healthy family dynamics(not toxic ones), and how we are to consider pursuing certain achievements in life. Why She Bleeds poetry perspective also reflects toward her most inner thoughts and emotions as well as mine, including any other individual whom has been through a whole lot in life. And yes. Lordwilling, that is what I desire to have myself. A real family dynamic above all else.
*I deal with or as you would have it the flowing of long term grief because of my passed on loved ones. Sometimes there are days where things are fine then those certain memories and thoughts crash in like waves. It is a process journey of emotions that the Lord allows but He will give me strength because of it in the end.
*When a lady speaks, everyone will recognize it. It's that simple.
*A Message To My Beloved Future Family Dynamic: The quiet child always understood the reality of many things, people, and the consideration of what is to be presented on behalf of how the galaxies operate.
*When your real brother or brothers are nerdy beyond reason. Their humour is slightly acceptable, yet approved by me. Smiling.
*If I simply do not like you as a person, not necessarily hatred, then my quiet stare and presence will make itself known, or I will simply remove you. Or I will present the best contemplating intellect that will either haunt you or improve you. There obviously is something off with certain individuals and the reality of their influences. My real loved ones will know what I'm discussing.
*Well when the rich shark boy CEO meets the humble, down-to-earth volcano girl. Well all I know is you better watch your tone of communications sweetheart. Financial gain is for the dogs.(ISAIAH Chapter 56)
*Either I'm impressed by others or they simply repulse me. It's that simple.
*I praise God that I had a narcissistic and sociopathic/sadism family dynamic in that aspect. I understood how they operated. One thing I knew for sure. And the Lord revealed it to me. They did not care about what they done to me because there was never real love there.(Jealousy, hatred, and envious thoughts) So I am blessed and favoured by God because of it. Not necessarily getting my way in life. But because His hand is upon my life. CS, INFJ Taurus Diaries/When people gang up on me!
*I can show anyone or everyone the colors of the rainbow if all possible. The colors of truth that is.
*When reading books, prefer if all possible children book genres as well. As an avid reader, selective on books in general. However, never selective on too intimate or too graphic of certain details written in books. When you have the gift of discernment, which I do, then it applies to every materialism if all possible or any area in life really.
*My older half sibling when we were younger, she made me watch a horror movie without my consent. Malignant narcissist to say the least. She is nine years older than I and in my quiet mind at the time and always thought that if a sibling or any siblings make you do something or anything that is uncomfortable, then they simply have no character. It is that simple. And it does not even have to be related either in certain situations. And because she done certain things, well the Lord has dealt with her over the years because of such indecency. So shall it be with anyone in general.
*When my mother had me, I was a "miracle child" in that aspect. It was vera late in her years. After having me, she considered her relationship with God on better terms and well her outlook on parenthood changed once I was born. After all, I was her odd little duck.
*Unfortunately, my biological father was, in my observations even though he was not evident, a high functioning predator. That is how I am able to discern certain types of males like him. And on both sides of my biological parents and their parents(Grandparents) were not realistically of God and there was much unhealed traumas and generational perspectives of either the occult or falling away from oneself in ways of delusions of the mind. So I praise God that overtime there was much revealing of psychology and the reality of soul exposure in His Word and why it is vital to remove certain influences, certain family dynamics, and truly considering baptism and deliverance.
*When I witness and observe highly immoral females in public. And how I know narcissistic men(low value males) network too much communications through their supplies, whether it be their low value females, family dynamics, friends, or other means of networks. As an INFJ female, repulses me to the vera core. These types of males have too much time on their hands and everyone involved.
*My mother was a high quality female. So shall it be with myself. Real ladies know their worth and does not settle for what would repulse them.
*"Into The Midnight Blue" is the reality of a female whom encountered trauma at a young age, now healed yet her healing can be of good to a damaged male. The male whom is damaged yet encountering the female will change the course of his damaged existence and also will assist the reality of them both on terms of their need to accomplish a better relationship with God, mainly on the male's journey. The short story also consists of the reality of many nights of reencountering the breaking and nonbreaking of thoughts, pasts, and eventually becoming the best version of yourself.
*There were certain types of males growing up that wanted to consider my mother's time and company after my father figure's departure. However, she figured them out. Some of them were in fact narcissistic and slight bit psychopathic to say the least. She turned down every single advance. And I kindly assisted with that. Wise indeed. No one went out of their way to harm my mother. My quiet stare made them think twice.
*My first love he was a sociopath. Even revealing how weak he was by considering company not in a good way with a couple of my female family members. My ex-husband was a sexist and a on and off again porn addict. Yet had the audacity to consider me an adulteress when I moved on from his "private" toxicity. And the relationship after him the young male had similarities and got a female pregnant, which he does not have rights to.(Serial emotional and physical cheaters) "He's A Covert Narcissist" and "Maid" Of Honor poetry perspectives relate to my mother's past relationships, my past relationships, certain types of males that have no empathy that dare not approach me, dealings with player like males,(does not matter the age, color of skin, or location), and how society has done a horrible reality of encouraging and enabling such individuals. I was loyal in these relationships, as a Taurus female should be. However, it is their loss not mine they do not hold a place in my life now. If they are not Godsents realistically, then they are simply counterfeits. Why it is never wise to cross a INFJ female.*
(Note: Understand these particular males have tremendous insecurities and they create their own egotistical worlds of delusions.(Which is hearts far from God) Even if they possibly went through certain incidents in childhood or other endeavours DOES NOT give them the right to prey in certain ways toward females and other individuals. Society and how the world operates give them those excuses).
*The only realistic trauma I had growing up was a fear of water. When I was younger, one of my older male cousins, which whom I do not associate with now, basically threw me in a deep swimming area without trying to save me. He thought just throwing me in there would assist trying to help me swim. Yet he did not go in after me. Surprisingly enough, eventually my older half sibling went to retrieve me from the water. There are various reasons why my actual family dynamic should never approach me at anytime and why I no longer have anything to do with them.(Or any other family dynamic that sets me up) So therefore, I had to use certain ways to cope with my fears by nurse sharks. Meditating on them in visionary ways assisted because they are more gentle than other predatorial mammals in the ocean. And well, having a fear of God in my life has assisted greatly with my thoughts.
*Since I am half deaf female,(my left ear particularly) unfortunately I can recognize and observe other individuals whom are deaf or half of hearing that either needs to consider their relationship with God better or simply do not need to be hypocritical in certain ways.
*I do have a hearing aid, but refuse to wear it because well my ears are small. In the future, need to consider a smaller one at the right timing.
*I have been baptized four times. The other three were because to increase my anointing and better my awareness to the world around me. Actual baptism should realistically begin when understanding the commandments of God. Its purpose is to seek the Lord with all your heart and soul, understanding that immersion of water alone does not clarify that seeking, and individuals are to eventually reach a point of considering the reality of their souls and to increase their intuitions.(1 Corinthians 2:10-16; verse 10)*
*In some cases with interactions with others, if you have a animal companion or companions, I might like you a little.