*LET'S CHAT AWHILE SHALL WE: Chatting May Vary On Time Consumption*
*Thumps up on effective conversations.*
*People create their own chaos without me in it. They need to keep that at bay. An actual mindset of a female loner.*
*Well I do not have to be massively loud to accomplish my anointing in life like others.***(Quiet Female Vessel of the Lord)
*I think we need more natural remedy stores than banks.
*When it considers beauty products or products in general, if all possible everything needs to be animal cruelty free and also no human experimentations. That way it is humane and chemicals are not lethal in a way harmful to the human or animal anatomy. Chemists are to become more elaborate in their approach to society and honoring God in all they do.
*Heaven forbid if you consider your health in certain endeavours rather than people pleasing and much considering time well spent.
*When others feel you are too quiet for them or entitled in some way, well I personally wear a smile. Entitled individuals do exist unfortunately. They are the ones that gossip way too much, are too worldly, mooch too much from the system, and have no purpose in life.
*My male feline, Logic, has massive amount of intuition just like me.
*As a heightened intellectual myself, small talk bores me to the next level.
*If you are nice to me, please be genuine. Not superficial or have too much childish schemes up your sleeves.
*If my personal anointing and honesty bothers you, and simply being myself, then do not have too much access to my life. It's that simple. I will find out.
*Writing has its pros and cons unfortunately. One minute you have it altogether. Then next, it can be draining mentally.
*It's nice to create a massive idea such as this to assist others on getting to know my inner thoughts more and human being existence. My cellular devices have that effect as well. And all other devices as well.
*I thought growing up that it must be the grandest of idea that when you were to be assertive at times then quiet at times, you are more horrible when you finally have to be assertive or address matters. Even when there is logic and reason behind it as well. Smug!
*When you are surrounded by others that copy everything you do, either there are two thoughts considering. One, they have no identity in life really or two, they are in fact most likely jealous or envious of you of some sort. Whatever that may consist of.
*I like to count in my mind the vera reasons why I'm blessed and why others need to spend more hours with God rather than be cursed with less hours they do not spend with the Creator.
*I really am a calm and collected type of female. It takes a lot for me to lose my patience. Try to never escalate to that point though. Observations are my best. That's just what I do naturally.
*Personally I am against tracking and tagging animals, including poaching and experimenting. So when I read about or know about such indecency, it repulses me to no end. Such inhumane acts will eventually have its consequences. Animals that do no harm to society should not be targeted.
* I think and know considerably I'm a good person. It's just others have this horrible outlook toward myself that distinguishes their impaired minds. Well they need to have better vocabulary in my opinion.
*Being a highly sensitive female is hard sometimes. People are not listening when I am either crying or trying to word things to the best of my ability. That is why my main emotions are communicated to the Lord rather than to insensitive people.
*I consider astrology in that aspect to better understand human behaviour. Not the vain imaginations connected to it. And yet, you cross impaired minds that have had or still delving into encountering actual witchcraft, Ouija boards, and paranormal ideologies. Such are double standards and hypocritical to say the least. That is why I personally stay quiet in front of these types of individuals when they pass their judgments.
*My mother had a infatuation with Chuck Norris. Lol. Even one of her favourite TV shows was Walker, Texas Ranger. She even more admired him because of martial arts and and Native American involvement.
*In some scenarios, yes, I can be difficult because of my quietness and well simply do not trust easily. Not necessarily difficulty, but rather curious and my simple emotions throughout my day.
*Well flatter me biscuits, I love figuring people out. It's a hobby of mine. It really is.(Pocahontas Cartoon Movie: It's Meeko! Lol!)
*I have to get mentally prepared before going out in public due to my introversion and social anxiety. Even if I take my natural based anxiety medicine for the day. Deep breaths and then let's give it a go. It takes courage to step outside for me.
*"A Soldier's Memoir" is actually based of course toward my mother's not so good upbringing. I written it in a way to where that is what family dynamic she desired to have but did not unfortunately. She had hazel eyes, did have siblings, and I written it also for her actual soulmate/love of her life.(Even though after that time era, she experienced three no so good relationships and then ended them. She was single for years before passing away). My mother was vera feminine to a degree. The short story reflects on what actual relationships should be, what to expect from real healthy family dynamics(not toxic ones), and how we are to consider pursuing certain achievements in life. Why She Bleeds poetry perspective also reflects toward her most inner thoughts and emotions as well as mine, including any other individual whom has been through a whole lot in life. And yes. Lordwilling, that is what I desire to have myself. A real family dynamic above all else.
*I deal with or as you would have it the flowing of long term grief because of my passed on loved ones. Sometimes there are days where things are fine then those certain memories and thoughts crash in like waves. It is a process journey of emotions that the Lord allows but He will give me strength because of it in the end.
*When a lady speaks, everyone will recognize it. It's that simple.
*A Message To My Beloved Future Family Dynamic: The quiet child always understood the reality of many things, people, and the consideration of what is to be presented on behalf of how the galaxies operate.
*When your real brother or brothers are nerdy beyond reason. Their humour is slightly acceptable, yet approved by me. Smiling.
*If I simply do not like you as a person, not necessarily hatred, then my quiet stare and presence will make itself known, or I will simply remove you. Or I will present the best contemplating intellect that will either haunt you or improve you. There obviously is something off with certain individuals and the reality of their influences. My real loved ones will know what I'm discussing.
*Well when the rich shark boy CEO meets the humble, down-to-earth volcano girl. Well all I know is you better watch your tone of communications sweetheart. Financial gain is for the dogs.(ISAIAH Chapter 56)
*Either I'm impressed by others or they simply repulse me. It's that simple.
*I praise God that I had a narcissistic and sociopathic/sadism family dynamic in that aspect. I understood how they operated. One thing I knew for sure. And the Lord revealed it to me. They did not care about what they done to me because there was never real love there.(Jealousy, hatred, and envious thoughts) So I am blessed and favoured by God because of it. Not necessarily getting my way in life. But because His hand is upon my life. CS, INFJ Taurus Diaries/When people gang up on me!
*I can show anyone or everyone the colors of the rainbow if all possible. The colors of truth that is.
*When reading books, prefer if all possible children book genres as well. As an avid reader, selective on books in general. However, never selective on too intimate or too graphic of certain details written in books. When you have the gift of discernment, which I do, then it applies to every materialism if all possible or any area in life really.
*My older half sibling when we were younger, she made me watch a horror movie without my consent. Malignant narcissist to say the least. She is nine years older than I and in my quiet mind at the time and always thought that if a sibling or any siblings make you do something or anything that is uncomfortable, then they simply have no character. It is that simple. And it does not even have to be related either in certain situations. And because she done certain things, well the Lord has dealt with her over the years because of such indecency. So shall it be with anyone in general.
*When my mother had me, I was a "miracle child" in that aspect. It was vera late in her years. After having me, she considered her relationship with God on better terms and well her outlook on parenthood changed once I was born. After all, I was her odd little duck.
*Unfortunately, my biological father was, in my observations even though he was not evident, a high functioning predator. That is how I am able to discern certain types of males like him. And on both sides of my biological parents and their parents(Grandparents) were not realistically of God and there was much unhealed traumas and generational perspectives of either the occult or falling away from oneself in ways of delusions of the mind. So I praise God that overtime there was much revealing of psychology and the reality of soul exposure in His Word and why it is vital to remove certain influences, certain family dynamics, and truly considering baptism and deliverance.
*When I witness and observe highly immoral females in public. And how I know narcissistic men(low value males) network too much communications through their supplies, whether it be their low value females, family dynamics, friends, or other means of networks. As an INFJ female, repulses me to the vera core. These types of males have too much time on their hands and everyone involved.
*My mother was a high quality female. So shall it be with myself. Real ladies know their worth and does not settle for what would repulse them.
*"Into The Midnight Blue" is the reality of a female whom encountered trauma at a young age, now healed yet her healing can be of good to a damaged male. The male whom is damaged yet encountering the female will change the course of his damaged existence and also will assist the reality of them both on terms of their need to accomplish a better relationship with God, mainly on the male's journey. The short story also consists of the reality of many nights of reencountering the breaking and nonbreaking of thoughts, pasts, and eventually becoming the best version of yourself.
*There were certain types of males growing up that wanted to consider my mother's time and company after my father figure's departure. However, she figured them out. Some of them were in fact narcissistic and slight bit psychopathic to say the least. She turned down every single advance. And I kindly assisted with that. Wise indeed. No one went out of their way to harm my mother. My quiet stare made them think twice.
*My first love he was a sociopath. Even revealing how weak he was by considering company not in a good way with a couple of my female family members. My ex-husband was a sexist and a on and off again porn addict. Yet had the audacity to consider me an adulteress when I moved on from his "private" toxicity. And the relationship after him the young male had similarities and got a female pregnant, which he does not have rights to.(Serial emotional and physical cheaters) "He's A Covert Narcissist" and "Maid" Of Honor poetry perspectives relate to my mother's past relationships, my past relationships, certain types of males that have no empathy that dare not approach me, dealings with player like males,(does not matter the age, color of skin, or location), and how society has done a horrible reality of encouraging and enabling such individuals. I was loyal in these relationships, as a Taurus female should be. However, it is their loss not mine they do not hold a place in my life now. If they are not Godsents realistically, then they are simply counterfeits. Why it is never wise to cross a INFJ female.*
(Note: Understand these particular males have tremendous insecurities and they create their own egotistical worlds of delusions.(Which is hearts far from God) Even if they possibly went through certain incidents in childhood or other endeavours DOES NOT give them the right to prey in certain ways toward females and other individuals. Society and how the world operates give them those excuses).
*The only realistic trauma I had growing up was a fear of water. When I was younger, one of my older male cousins, which whom I do not associate with now, basically threw me in a deep swimming area without trying to save me. He thought just throwing me in there would assist trying to help me swim. Yet he did not go in after me. Surprisingly enough, eventually my older half sibling went to retrieve me from the water. There are various reasons why my actual family dynamic should never approach me at anytime and why I no longer have anything to do with them.(Or any other family dynamic that sets me up) So therefore, I had to use certain ways to cope with my fears by nurse sharks. Meditating on them in visionary ways assisted because they are more gentle than other predatorial mammals in the ocean. And well, having a fear of God in my life has assisted greatly with my thoughts.
*Since I am half deaf female,(my left ear particularly) unfortunately I can recognize and observe other individuals whom are deaf or half of hearing that either needs to consider their relationship with God better or simply do not need to be hypocritical in certain ways.
*I do have a hearing aid, but refuse to wear it because well my ears are small. In the future, need to consider a smaller one at the right timing.
*I have been baptized four times. The other three were because to increase my anointing and better my awareness to the world around me. Actual baptism should realistically begin when understanding the commandments of God. Its purpose is to seek the Lord with all your heart and soul, understanding that immersion of water alone does not clarify that seeking, and individuals are to eventually reach a point of considering the reality of their souls and to increase their intuitions.(1 Corinthians 2:10-16; verse 10)*
*In some cases with interactions with others, if you have a animal companion or companions, I might like you a little. Depends on if I like you that is.
*I repeat myself at times because I still have issues with my speech impairments due to social anxiety and well no one obviously still to this day considers what I have to say in other situations.
*The Rescuers Down Under cartoon movie from years ago was my gateway into learning the Australian accent. And both movies hold quite a bit of truth in them. Also I absolutely love Miss Bianca. She is the perfect lady type animal species as well as Duchess in the Aristocats.
*I had the best of both worlds growing up in the ways of living. My mother's time era type of living and modern day type of living. So that is part of my maturity of age persona.
*When you are either deaf, half deaf, or cannot speak for various reasons, using silent techniques or even certain sign language can be beneficial to connecting with your animal companion or companions. Even if you are vera introverted can assist with this as well. I feel there is a better connection to that than raising your voice or displaying aggressive behaviour. Just like certain humans, animals' nervous system is highly sensitive too.
*"Days" Poetry Perspective is based on the reality of my personal cold and stoic character as well as my profound level of intuition. It also reflects throughout my life and what it felt like growing up in an environment of hostility and the lack of emotional support. There were times where I felt so alone because of it even though I was surrounded by people. If a child or children feel alone within an environment, well that speaks volumes on parenthood and other influences along the way. As an INFJ female, loneliness was never an issue of mine. However, I can recognize and observe it in other people.
*Narcissistic men and their flying monkeys makes my INFJ self want to vomit. Also their lonely and desperate pleas of delusional connections.
*I think it is highly necessary for individuals to consider far better intellectual stimulations than processing technology all the time.
*My writing is possibly dangerous. So I must continue to accomplish it. Smiling. And well I have to be assertive when necessary. Because when I am quiet as everyone knows by now, it's absolutely frightening.
*I considered old-fashioned names within my short stories because I have always been drawn to them since I was young. Modern day type name considerations are good. However, it is more preferable to have proper name terms really.
*I do not approve of narcissistic neighbourhood operations. They either have too much lacking in the reality of God or severe psychological impairments to the next level. However, not all neighbours are like this, but someone discerning such as myself knows otherwise. Even in certain cases, I know certain neighbours are in fact receiving payments for monitoring. They will have their end.
*I like authority as long as it suits me really. I base everything on worldview concepts, the reality of spirituality and psychology, financial endeavours, the levels of characters given-(actual maturity), and logic and reason in the capacity of intellectual stimulations.
*I am more drawn to gentlemanlike and ladylike individuals. If I feel anyone is not up to part of this particular standard, then out you go from my life or you simply need to improve on such standards in my opinion.
*My best friend or mate, Christopher, whom passed away five years ago due to suicide, gave me the best compliment in a gentleman way. He stated that I was any man's dream and it would be an honor to be with me. He was close to my mother for years. And I have made sure that those involved or factors of his suicide has reaped the consequences in subtle ways. No one realistically tried to understand him and his ideations were mainly because of his own mother's passing for years and childhood upbringing. So yes. If I am close to you in some particular way, then all is well. No one harms my loved ones.
*"Beauty and The Beast" perspective has its own interpretations of course. However, in my opinion, "beast" also can imply a well balanced grandfather, father, brother or brothers, best friend, and/or male mentor in life. It necessarily does not have to consider an intimate type connection. And well it is one of my favourite cartoon movies.
*When people raise their voice at me and/or consider that before their thoughts reach my presence, the Lord God is already reaping the consequences for me. It has always been that way my whole life.
*Acts of service is one of my love languages and also one of the few callings of God in my life.
*Having the anointing on your life is a prophetic utterance in and of itself.
*Having the anointing on your life unfortunately will cause resentment with others in certain circumstances. Their resentments are not your issue. Resentments in life are just another factor of why those involved need more of the reality of God in their lives.
*The relationships with my past loves and other encounters after, they chose other females over me. That is quite alright. That just simply revealed to me that they are in fact insecure and need much more guidance in life than they realize. And well I have other opportunes in life to consider and take care of. And the humourous part of it is that in some cases, you might have certain ones crawling back to you when in reality, they are delusional and need to crawl back to their low quality, low value females. Lol.
*Sometimes certain worship songs assist to ease my pain because of my loved ones gone. Even then it is still hard sometimes to grasp my true intentional thoughts. My silent calm anger is not anything to be humourous or played with. No one toys with my emotions.
*When you literally pray the scriptures rather than reading them into existence, then a more profound presence of God enters the room. It is not just the anointing. It is almost like the holy of holies. And a better understanding of the reality on the knowledge of God.
*When I am in the presence of individuals that have darkness, they only intensify my light.
*I have always had a natural strong posture about myself. Not because of anything masculine, but how I have had to carry myself through life and well it exhibits my strong personality to the next level.***
*The more honest I am about situations, my life, and those around me, the more the Lord blesses me. So I praise God always for what He has accomplished in my life and continues to do so.
*I personally own regular or elementary type mathematical books and a calculus book. And it of course can be used for certain levels of both spiritual and psychological atmospheres. Vera reserved female indeed.
*People state that you have to have a purpose driven type of life to fully understand the will of God in your life. Well to certain degrees, that is true. However, every day is an opportune to consider how that will unfold as time goes by. Too many pressures on the whole perspective in my opinion and everything will always work out for your good as long as you continue to seek after the Lord in a genuine and honest way.
*Well my anointing presents itself in subtle ways. Even when the planets align in the night skies at appointed times. Even the Little Dipper-(Ursa Minor) presents itself and seeks after me no matter where I am located at.(Psalm 34:7)*** And the moon in the Lord's Calendar reveals much of my divine protection.***
*Some days as an introverted female and well because of my hearing issue, just need quiet. That way can recharge for the better.
*I like to use my personal creative writing to enhance the reality of the Word of God and also to consider my intellectual stimulated mind to the next level.*
*Did You Know? That the astrology sign Libra is in the word, "library." Fancy that in my tiny introverted mind.
*Well some more of vulnerability here I guess. The real reason I personally am drawn to the "brother" mentality as you would have it is because my older half sibling was a female of course and was not an authentic example for myself growing up. So even though that could be possible for males in that aspect, however, she caused unfortunately for me not to trust females that could possibly want to consider a connection with me in that regard. So yes. As of right now, or it has been for years, would rather consider brothers rather than sisters. And also to consider is that it has nothing to do with trauma or validations. When your sibling or siblings reveal to you in subtle ways they cannot be trusted, then you have to use discernment rather than feeling like you can no longer trust anyone. I have been in contact with other family dynamics over the years just to find in certain ways they simply have either no maturity or does not respect you to the fullest. So that is why I just simply pray that the Lord intervenes in that mentality for myself and toward my life in general.
*In "All These Debates" poetry perspective is the reality of how the world operates in different forum type communications. And also my breaking point in that aspect in the quiet in dealings with the Religious System as a whole concerning the scriptures/writings. When anyone or a system of groupings take the Word of God severely out of context, then it leaves the assembly or congregation in a constant state of confusion, doubt, and eventually at times, within the lifetime, forsaking the Lord in all general. And to consider the hypocrisy on certain levels and why it is highly vital to return back to the ancient ways of considering a mature relationship with God rather than seeking after man's validation on the entirety of the perspective. When you actually pray the scriptures for example, it is a process of how the anointing is to be established in a way to where it leads to a further seeking after God rather than a every now and again mindset. The anointing is a lifetime pursuant not just for entertainment and in subtle ways creating unnecessary chaos. Personally that is why I eventually chose to consider the festivals of the Lord years ago. There is no confusion, doubting, or wanting to deter from my relationship with God. It actually increased my spiritual journey rather than take anything away.*
*My actual mother was an observational female beast and beauty all in one. She trained me to understand the world around me and to expose our actual family dynamic for what it was. Including the "parents" she left behind to care for me. When in reality, they are no different than any other family dynamics I have encountered. When I observe in the quiet how certain family dynamics operate, it makes me question the reality of why they continue in certain operations and how soulless they really are. As an INFJ female, sometimes my assertiveness can be profound enough to pierce through souls and make others realize that they are not as clever as they seem. So yes. I am repulsed by certain ones that simply prey on others and in return, only embarrass themselves and all the associations involved. And more importantly, how the Lord is going to deal with them in subtle ways.(Revelation 22:11)* And inbred family dynamics are simply not of God. Cursed and simply defiled unless they turn from their wicked ways. It is that simple.
*AS AN INFJ FEMALE, DO HAVE A DARKSIDE AND WILL USE IT WHEN NECESSARY.***(Mommie's little princess)
*If I become more assertiveness unfortunately, then obviously people need to recheck their characters. Smug!
*Did You Know? My mother's birth year is exactly the same birth year of the Prime Minister of Israel, Benjamin Netanyahu. I always since I was young thought that was neat. She was born in March whereas he was born in October. And Israel holds a special place in my heart other than the facts stated.
*Unsanitary houses make my skin crawl really. I think you can discern a lot about others through their homes and to consider the reality of possible unbalances and witchcraft levels as well. As a female that sees and knows too much, it can be exhausting to understand this reality.
*Unfortunately I get highly annoyed by unproperness in others. When I find out that you or anyone involved is not proper in vocabulary or character, then well my INFJ levels will reveal itself in time.
*My mother's wisdom was that as long as I focus on God in life, He will take care of the rest in all areas of my life. Well I tend to keep that wisdom close to the heart.
*Everyone seems to have their personal "David" in their lives. Well in my quiet way, I have David Diga. At times, he is straight to the point on certain matters and well my mother would have loved to meet him and the family.
*Did you know or notice? Nurse sharks are rarely approached by larger type sharks. Why? Because of their intensity of knowing and well if threatened, a nurse shark can and will remember their locations throughout the oceans.
*"Antarctica Policies" in my poetry perspectives is the brutal reality of temporary obediences to the laws of the land-(or man rather) and they will not hold weight in the actual kingdom of God.(His government) I have spent much time in observations over the years understanding the reality of systems of control. Everything created by man unfortunately seems to always lead back to illusions of controlling the masses. The Word of God is explicit on this throughout the prophets. That is one of the factors of why the Lord called them to action. They were misunderstood by those around them because the surrounding nations followed after their stubborn hearts. When you live a life for God fully, most people will consider it different and misunderstandings will occur. And as always, the Lord is discerning and knowing of it all.(Psalm 33)
*When I personally spend time in the Word of God, there are times where I simply flip open the Bible and then there is a message and prayer already for me to consider presenting. My level of intellect of course is presented in a way different than others. Why? Because I still my heart and actually allow the Holy Spirit to actively gain the process of my thought patterns. And the more you actually grow in the Word of God, the more knowledge He will grant you for spiritual wisdom purposes and to build character overtime.